Modern Day Disciples
A Catholic blog written by teenagers for teenagers.
Tuesday, 5 September 2017
Embrace Humanity
Thursday, 29 October 2015
Come As You Are
Today, I sang this song as I walked down the aisle to receive my King, and never before have the words impacted me so much. Christ's love for us is such an unfathomable and wonderfully mysterious thing, and I am always awed by his infinite mercy. Lately I have been letting satan convince me that I'm completely unworthy of the love of Christ, but that is just not true. Christ is always ready to pour his love and mercy upon me. Every day he's begging me to "come home... come home...", and today I came home. I told my Jesus that I was ready to let go of my sins and restraints, and through Reconciliation he freed me of my bounds and ran to me at full speed. Like the father of the prodigal son, He rejoiced and embraced me, and I have never felt so loved. So complete.
I say this because no matter how burdened, ashamed, broken, lost, or hurt we feel, God loves us. He wants us at our best and our worst. No matter where we stand God is waiting for us to come home. Although, we must keep in mind that it's so much more than an "I guess I'm sorry and I'll try to do better." When we sin, we hurt Jesus. We nail Him to that cross and He suffers and dies for us. But He does this because He loves us. We must surrender ourselves to Him and show Him that we desire His love.
We were made for so much more than the mediocrity of our society. We were made to grow and thrive in Christ's love. He gives us not only a second and third chance, but infinite chances. Never let your sins get the best of you. Don't you dare give up. Though you are flawed, just like we all are as human beings, you are made perfect through Christ. Come home with whatever burdens you carry and struggles in your heart. Offer them up to the Lord and come just as you are.
Sunday, 27 April 2014
Happy Easter
God created Adam. Adam is then technically a son of God. Then, God put Adam to sleep and created Eve from his body. Satan comes along and, because he hates God, breaks his creation. This was the Fall. God says ok, I'll fix it. He calls Abraham. He makes promises to him, his son, his grandson, etc. Every major experience of Abraham and the Israelites prefigures Christ, but there's no time to get into that now. Anyway, after Moses brings the Israelites back from Egypt and gives them the Law, God fulfills the earthly promises he made to Abraham, namely a place to worship and a nation of his descendants. A royal kingdom is established under David. Satan likewise breaks this under Solomon's rule, after the earthly temple is built. By now you're probably thinking, when is God going to make something that Satan can't break? Oh, just wait. Under the royal kingdom, there are prophets that begin to witness the coming of Christ. After the break of the Davidic kingdom, the Roman Empire begins to rise (very slowly). Now there are prophets that are calling for the conversion of the Gentiles. God spoke through the mouth of the prophets this way because he was going to make the Roman Empire conquer the world (at least what was known to be the world at that time). There is the exile, the return, and the Maccabean revolt. Now, most of the world is relatively at peace. The Romans are rising, the Jews have their land back (although under the Roman rule) and there are no prophets among the Jewish people. Then comes Christ. He proclaims a heavenly kingdom under God the Father, through his Son (Jesus himself). Satan sees this and he thinks he can break the Messiah as well. And he does. He stirred up the wickedness in human hearts, and Jesus was crucified. Satan thought this his greatest victory - God tried to make something he couldn't break, and he broke it. But then something happened that Satan didn't quite expect. JESUS ROSE FROM THE DEAD. He put himself back together. Satan couldn't break him. What was worse for him, Christ, the Son of God, created a bride for himself, the Church. He made his bride from his own body. And he made her eternal too. She was persecuted; Satan tried to break her. But she conquered the Roman Empire, and through it, the world. Though nations rise and fall, Christ's bride is eternal. She awaits his second coming in expectant hope, because when he comes again Christ will be with her forever, in perfect love and unity.
Have a blessed Easter season, Church.
Monday, 31 March 2014
You are Awesome
That, my lovely Catholic amigos, is my favorite bible verse and has been since it was first shared with me almost 3 years ago. Why, you might ask? Well, at the time, I was 15, in the midst/tail end of the painfully awkward middle school/ freshman years. So many new thoughts, pressures, and experiences are thrown at you at this time of your life, and honestly the timing really stinks. As a young teen, I had no idea who I was or who I wanted to be (and I'm sure I'm not the only one who went through this). I was the definition of awkward, just look at my 7th grade year book picture(YIKES). I let every comment anyone ever said define me, and I worked tirelessly to try to recreate myself to fit the eyes of my peers. I didn't hate myself, or even come close to it, but I did constantly find myself wishing to be smarter, or less socially awkward, or more talented, or prettier, or taller(still struggle with this one tbh)."You formed my inmost being; you knit me in my mother's womb. I praise you, so wonderfully you made me; wonderful are your works!" Psalm 139:13-14
In the meantime, I was going through the confirmation process. In 7th grade, I watched my older brother(and role model) get confirmed. He said he could feel the Holy Spirit in him, which the thought of simply left me in awe. One year later it was my turn, and I guess you could say I was excited but I didn't really get it. For a number of reasons, I guess I just wasn't at the spiritual maturity level to receive the Holy Spirit. BUT long story short, I left mass feeling the same why I walked in: hungry.
But then I read the twenty four words above, and my life got flipped upside down. My revelation went a little like this:
"Alright, so God made me, that's pretty cool, I guess. WAIT WAIT WAIT, GOD made ME. like he actually took the time to create me. He spent time forming the deepest, darkest, ugliest parts of me. HE MADE THE WHOLE FREAKING WORLD AND HE STILL FELT THE NEED TO MAKE ME?!? WHY WOULD HE SPEND ALL THIS TIME CREATING ME IF HE DIDNT THINK I WAS WORTH SOMETHING? HE LITERALLY MADE ME BECAUSE HE BELIVIES IN ME. AND I DOUBT HIS PLANS FOR ME? LIKE WHAT ARE YOU EVEN DOING MARY CATHERINE?!"
and just like that, I wasn't hungry anymore. Accepting the fact that God made me perfectly for a ultimate purpose (glorifying him) brought me peace and freed my heart from worrying about insecurities. With the new room in my heart, I was able to create a home for God. Sure, I have neglected him, and kicked him out of my heart a few times since. I definitely don't have a perfect faith but I think everyone struggles with maintaining an active relationship with God, especially when there are so many unknowns in the future. But at the end of the day, the times when I let the Lord overtake my life and worries, Im a lot happier, and that beautiful fact gives me faith.
SOOOO....
if you're feeling insecure and you don't know what for, just remember you're turning heads when you walk through the door.
sorry couldn't help but bring a little one direction up in here.
But you are, in fact, turning heads, every time you walk through the doors. YOU, lovely person, are constantly turning God's head. For he made you wonderfully, and he believes in the purpose that is you. You may not know what that purpose is yet, and you may not be crazy happy with everything about yourself but that's okay. God created YOU, your strengths and weaknesses, and knowingly put you on this Earth. He made you to be beautiful and strong and absolutely perfect for the purpose you are intended to fill. You may not have it all figured out, but that's okay. Trust the Lord, he has got your back. You are his wonderful work, and nothing or nobody is better at being you.
Remember the Lord took a week to create everything around us, but He took 9 whole freaking months to make you. Just let that sink in.
Hit me up if you ever need a pep talk or just need to talk, and know that you're always in my prayers.
"And this is my prayer: that your love may increase ever more and more in knowledge and every kind of perception, to discern what is of value, so that you may be pure and blameless for the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ for the glory and praise of God." - Philippians 1: 9-11
Saturday, 8 March 2014
Divine Providence
Trustful Surrender to Divine Providence is the title of the book my parish priest gave to me two months ago. Siri has informed me that “Providence” is both the capital of Rhode Island and the manifestation of God's foresightful care for His creatures. Knowing this, I laughed this morning when I came across the same book with the unreasonably long title, lying open on the floor of my car, the spine crushed by a glass shelf. (Don't ask)
I laughed because the natural metaphor machine in my brain immediately struck with me with one of the most accurate spiritual comparisons it has conceived thus far: I treat this book about divine providence the same way I treat actual Divine Providence in my life. I've seemingly overlooked the secret to true happiness! Let me explain…
We are promised constantly in scripture and in the Sacraments that God is always watching over us, protecting us, and caring for us. We see this in Exodus 16, in which The Lord provides for His chosen people of Israel with bread and quail, even as they continued to disobey God's commandments and complain constantly.
Then in Jeremiah 29, a verse we are so familiar with,
“For I know the plans I have for you, says the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
Brothers and sisters, there is a difference between following God's will for us and trusting it. I can walk blindfolded, with you leading me, and still not trust that you're actually taking me for ice cream. In reality, I know that I wholeheartedly listen to God's will for me with an open heart, but doubt and uncertainty still linger. My mouth speaks the word “yes,” but my heart has me wait at the door, until it knows it's safe outside.
To be welcomed into the wonderful mystery of our faith demands a sacrifice of comfort that defies all of our innate survival instincts. God calls men and women to work with lepers and the poor, to strip themselves of all worldly possessions and to give their lives to others. How can we be expected to trust a God who demands so much?
Well, it's not easy and it takes time. So this Lent, as we strive to make sacrifices of time and comfort, and we increase our dependency on God, we can also strive to trust that following God's will is the quickest and surest path to our own happiness and will give us the most fulfilling life here on Earth.
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